Mostly Michelle Marie

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  • The Dress of Destiny

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  • The Unexpected Answer to the Unspoken Question

    I had a thought today about how little of my life I have spent in sobriety; I feel as though it’s a place I like to visit but would never seriously consider moving to. It makes me wonder if this is perhaps yet another way in which I self-sabotage myself or at the very least,… Read more

  • Happy Birthday, Kiddo! We Made It!

    Happy birthday to the past and painfully young me. If eyes are the window to the soul, those eyes would reveal the storm raging in our most unquiet mind. Feeling unseen, irrelevant and invisible while at the same time trapped and claustrophobic. No power, no rage, no fists striking out blindly in anger; only the… Read more

  • I’ll Never Say Good-bye.

    I’ll never say good-bye to you. I’ll never think of you as gone; you’re still curled up, tucked in and filling the entirety of my heart. You’re the voice in my head that tells me to keep going, believe in myself, keep the faith and stay strong. You’re the one who I think of when… Read more

  • I Love You Like Meat Loves Salt

    My very first acting role was in first grade of a Catholic school in the early 70’s (you can do the math, it’s fine) at the Christmas Nativity scene play, where I played the role of Jesus’ mom, Mary. During rehearsals for the play, we had a plain little baby doll of no particular sex… Read more

  • Waiting for Bliss – Practicing the Lost Art of Delayed Gratification

    “Success is sweet and sweeter if long delayed and gotten through many struggles and defeats.” -Amos Bronson Alcott I have long struggled with impulse control; that need for immediate gratification and instant reward the moment the task has been completed. I had thought of this as a personality trait and nothing more until recently. Someone… Read more

  • Grace After the Fire; A Story of Redemption, Recovery and the Healing Power of Laughter

    My thoughts on the story of Brett Butler, star of Grace Under Fire and one of my very favorite stand up comics, telling it like it is straight from the lips of a legit Southern Belle, born and raised in the South. She may have left the South, but it never left her. Unnecessary disclaimer:… Read more

  • Comfortably Dumb

    Most of you know that I have a very hate/hate relationship with traffic and specifically, people in their cars doing absolutely everything EXCEPT driving. If it’s not the ever-present cell phone or various screens of various sizes channeling varieties of nonsensical bullshit and self-serving, narcissistic narcotics to the masses, it’s some other stupid thing. It’s… Read more

  • A Tough Love Letter to Me, Myself and I from Me, Myself & I

    I have been struggling with a wide variety of issues, both imagined (things that MIGHT happen and things that MIGHT NOT) and real, that have caused me to slowly lull myself into a state of self-pity, depression and endless scrolling on social media, as if the answer is hidden there, although I know it isn’t.… Read more

  • Letting Go to Hold On

    I’m a collector of sorts; I collect teeny, tiny versions of things like mini jam jars, any sort of container or tin, miniature gnomes and cats and unicorns as well as books I swear I’ll read at some point, photos of moments lost in time and stories of all manner and source. Oh – and… Read more