life
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Happy Birthday, Kiddo! We Made It!
2024, 57-years-old, adult-children-of-alcoholics, bipolar disorder, birthday, buddy-christ, Catholic, childhood, december, family, gift-to-myself, happy-birthday, i-love-you, indoctrination, its-my-birthday-month, jesus, kiddo, life, love, mental health, self-love, success, this-year, trauma, unquiet-mind, Winter SolsticeHappy birthday to the past and painfully young me. If eyes are the window to the soul, those eyes would reveal the storm raging in our most unquiet mind. Feeling unseen, irrelevant and invisible while at the same time trapped and claustrophobic. No power, no rage, no fists striking out blindly in anger; only the…
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Rest in peace, bestie who I believed you to be. Rest in peace, the oldest, dearest part of me. Rest in peace, that child who felt she was never enough; Rest in peace, little one, I know it’s been rough. Rest in peace to the girl who always felt judged, who didn’t really lie about…
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Into the Looking Glass I Go
carnival, death, deity, distortion, evil-queen, funhouse, funhouse-mirror, irish-catholic, lies, life, looking-glass, love, mask, mirror, prayer, self-love, skunk, snow-white, souls, stank, stanky-stank, truth, unloved, windowI can’t see a mirror without thinking of magic portals and hidden worlds of incredible beauty where fantastical creatures roam. Centaurs and fairies, nymphs and unicorns alike, residing together in this mystical place. Mirrors are magical to me; from the first time I looked into a mirror and saw a wild child with curly hair,…
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Return To My Childhood Castle
7 year old, bluejays, bringer of life, calm, caring, castle, castle walls, child, child of the Universe, compassionate, crested tit, EMDR therapy, eyes, feelings and fears, foreboding, fresh from the dryer, gray, grown woman, healer, Higher Power, inescapable, information, life, light, love, loving parent, magpies, mission, pigeons, puffins, purpose, relevant, sadness, safe, sage, Sherlock Holmes, soul, sparrow, starlings, strength, summon, therapy, thick, thought palace, travel, unconditional love, wet blanket, whole, wise, wise womanWhere does a 7-year-old go to when the world gets to be too much? Well, if you’re me, you go to your castle. Rather like the mind palace of Sherlock Holmes but instead of holding information, this castle houses a little girl and all the feelings and fears she brings with her. It provides a…
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After a lifetime of struggling with bipolar disorder, trauma, shame and secrecy, I have found the light. THERAPY!
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Whether you hate her, love her, don’t know who she is and/or don’t care, most people are aware of the force of nature that is Miley Cyrus. I never watched Hannah Montana, never really felt any sort of kinship with her (she’s quite a bit younger than me being the most obvious) but I can…
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When you can’t leave the past in the past, but you want to heal.
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Gratitude is the wine for the soul. Go on. Get drunk. -Rumi Intuition, that quiet little inner voice that guides me, keeps me out of danger and helps me to realize my true path has been screaming at me as of late. I have so much packing, storing and cleaning to do and so little…
Mostly Michelle Marie 